| Kendama |
01-16-2014 11:10 PM |
I was bullied in middle school. It was bad. They would always do that "your gay" **** because i had a gay, flared accent. It didn't sound that way to me so i didn't notice it, but it did sound like that in recordings and such. and it started to get really personal. I am completely straight, and I always have been. I just really didn't like how so many kids would get on in the joke of calling me it. I was actually a nice kid back then, its just their immaturity i guess. It did affect me socially, to an extent. One day, this group of exceptionally mean kids were bullying me in PE. They were following me around calling me gay and all that crap, and they had done it all the time. I had enough of their **** and i felt rather fed up, so i threw a basketball at the kid. I nailed him in the head and he fell down. He got up like he was going to try to fight me, but i was just walking up to him and i nailed him in the face. He tried laughing after a couple seconds so i did it again. He fell down and then i put all my weight and kicked down on his stomach with my foot. He was coughing and **** and then threw up. I was suspended, he got off with everything. I had friends still, I had some good ones. Especially this girl. She really helped me move through those years and, as a junior in HS we are still good friends.
When i say all this i mean 7th grade. I went to a private school in 8th, where things were fine. Boring, no bullying atleast. I was actually the "bad kid" in that grade. The only one who knew and had gotten his hands a little dirty with sex and alcohol and pot and such. They respected me in an odd way, i guess.
Anyways, going back into the public school system (9th grade freshie) I was way ahead in puberty. I shot up while i disappeared from the public schoolers in 8th grade, and in my return i was much taller, stronger, deeper voice, and i had like a beard. For real. It was rough shape back then, but it was still a beard lol. Either the kids didnt know I was the same person from 7th grade, or they were intimidated because I could have beat their ass in a fight. Ever since i started high school, things completely changed. I made friends, i have dated lots of girls, i enjoyed being ahead of everyone on the puberty thing. I feel like maybe it was a gift of relief from god or something (which is weird, because i dont believe in a specific god).
I haven't had specific issues since then. But some people still think i am pretty weird. I feel socially awkward and certain times and I cant explain it. But I think it is because the bullies made me truly look at people and know how heartless they can be, (im very passionate about making the world better so it bothers me a lot how selfish the human race is).
TLDR I understand the OP. Bullying can affect you socially long after it stops. I think on the misery it caused back then, and I am a tough person who doesn't take *** from anybody anymore. But i do like to get along with people, more than fight.
I am a kid who had been training for about a year now for the marine corps, i am a jr in high school, pretty well respected and well rounded. Talented, if i could say the least. And much stronger than most. You would think someone like this would laugh at bullying victims, but i truly understand how damaging it can be, especially while younger.
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