Every once in a while, I like to reflect on decisions I have made in the past, and because of this I felt the need to apologize to certain people but mostly to all of you. Bear with me on this because it is a rare occasion that I ever admit mistakes.

As most have noticed, I have been inactive from iEra in favor of real life end of summer activities (beach, girls, etc), also playing iClassic wanting to meet new people and working for Delteria. Also, my cousin just moved to my state from Hawaii so I have been showing him around helping him get set up for school.

Now, with all this going on, I haven't exactly been in touch with iEra and what was going on. I had vocally claimed I disliked how the server was going with all these updates that no way relate to the server. Apparently my opinion went very noticed and eventually players started following suit saying how crappy the server was etc etc. I had never intended for this to happen in all reality, I just speak my mind. Recently, snk messaged me why I hate iEra, and baisically we had a long talk about what I don't like that is going on. He explained some things to me that cancelled out some of my points, but still left others in the air.

But within my break from iEra I have realized one of my biggest mistakes was the post on here about Loki. That was something highly immature on my part and should have been a private matter in which I emailed Snk or even forum messaged Snake or Kane. Honestly I have no idea why I made it public, I always liked the fact I could stir up a crowd with what I say and how I say it. Which is what happened and led Loki to quit for a period. For that I am deeply sorry to Loki for my actions and how they affected him. I am also sorry to all of you, for putting that information in your heads that in all honestly, you didn't need to know about. I know Loki doesn't have a forum account, but if any of you have his email, or would tell him to check this I would be most appreciative.

Secondly I would like to apologize to Snk, and really all of the staff. I realize some of the things that I have said has really been trash talk on all of your hard work. My opinion on the server should stick to it's theme remains unchanged, however I should not be calling your work trash. I would hate for someone to look at my graphics and just say it's crap, so again I apologize for looking down on the hard work you all put in.

Third, I would like to apologize to my friends. A lot have quit because they share the same views as me, but maybe they will come back one day. What I am saying sorry for however, is not being the guy I used to be. I notice I have changed, and most of it is because of real life situations I have been put in/taking a part of recently. I found my real life friends to be more valuable than my pixel ones, which is NOT true. Both, real and pixel friends, have played a major role in my life. I know I used to be there more to listen to all of your problems, and just be the guy that could make you smile when you were sad or pissed (hint my name jester), but I just ignore people now. I am sorry, and I plan on fixing this.

Lastly, I would like to apologize to everyone else. Really, I come on here and talk all this big talk, and I realize most of you look up to me in some way, or find me to be some sort of "famous" be it my pixel art, my legacy in era, or just my personality, but sometimes I allow this to get to my head and treat all of you like crap. Of course it hasn't happened recently with my inactivity, but it has happened in the past and I am sorry for it. I am just a normal kid like the rest of you. I go to school, I eat food, I sleep in a bed, I wear clothing, I have a family, all like you guys. You all backed me up in the Ken, Recurvez ordeal, and I appreciate that and respect you all for it. I do realize that I do have a big say in iEra and the player base simply because I am friends with staff and I have that label "famous", and I really don't want to kill your guys' trust in that. So again, I am sorry.


If you bothered reading all that, congrats you've witnessed the first or second time I have actually apologized for my actions. Whatever I do for the server or outside of it, I do it for you guys. I learned to make graphics so you guys could enjoy it. That is why I value your opinions so much when I do work.

If there is something else you guys feel I need to apologize for, lemmie know. Your opinions actually do mean a lot.

~JesterLapse