It's awful to hear that these things happen, but I personally believe there's always a greater meaning behind things. How we view that meaning determines everything. Life gives you a blessing, or a lesson. Sometimes a lesson can be even more valuable than you would've thought at the time. The important thing is, like Hadzz said, is to have a superior mentality than those around you. You have to believe in against all odds that change can happen. If you went back say 5 years from now, you would've never been able to convince me that I would be who I am today. Never. Not in a million years. Like you, I had my own bullying issues. It's despicable, today I can't stand to hear or see it for myself. I've been depressed, multiple times. Last summer being the most recent; however, today I believe I have the capability to out power at least 10 people when it comes to enthusiasm and positive thinking. Positive thinking won't solve all your issues, especially the ones in the present, but it's good to have something to look forward to. So you're no longer having to push yourself to get better, rather you have something compelling to pull you towards it. I know for me it may sound easy to say these things, especially since I've never been in your place before or had any experience with that, but I know what it's like to watch a loved one die right in front of your eyes in the most painful way possible. And against all odds, even with less than or 0.3% of white blood cells left, they survived. Knowing that these experiences will build you in some aspect, will make you stronger than you can imagine. Everyday I like to wake up at 4AM, both happy to be given life, and a tad disappointed knowing that I wasted 4 of my valuable 24 hours sleeping instead of living. I can't explain the feeling of joy it brings you knowing there's something to look forward to in life. It's something I hope everyone will get to experience, at least once, just as a reminder that not all hope's lost.