Embarrassing..

I rarely come here but I gotta say I'm embarrased for you. Try seeking medical attention instead of navelgazingly spouting your made up armchair philosophy about some "truth" here. Young impressionable kids are on these forums, their parents don't want them to be exposed to the insane ramblings of some troubled guy.

Don't mean to insult, genuinely hope you seek help for your own sake and the people around you. Step away from the keyboard and think about the nonsense you're sharing for a minute.