FP4's moment of pride was short-lived. The shell shock of being responsible for murder had finally started to sink in, and all the cocaine in the world would have fallen short of comfort. What FP wanted--no, what he needed--was love.
A grisly stubble had sprouted on his chin as he sat back, watching the forum-goers pass. They had no idea, did they? No idea what it was like to be him, to be steeped in the blood of the innocents, in the mistakes for which one could never forgive himself. FP4 finally stood, his joints popping with strain, and resolved to never return. What use could he be, just some emotionally broken old troll? He gave one last glance around, though he wasn't sure why he wanted to embed a place with such a sad history into his mind. But then it happened. Their eyes met, and for a moment, FP4 thought he had to be hallucinating. How could another creature be so incredibly... beautiful?
No, he thought, turning his face away with a grimace. No, I don't deserve anyone like that. Not after...
"Hi," a melodic voice purred, the hushed tones stroking his very soul. It had to be the same person he'd just seen. FP4 finally looked up. "How've you been?" the angel asked.
"Terrible," he breathed. Suddenly it all came flooding out, as though this person had been sent to liberate him from all the terrors he'd suffered. Tears rolled down his cheeks, leaving light trails of clean flesh as they washed away the grime from his face--and the pain from his soul. He told the angel everything, and he sobbed, and he begged for forgiveness. It felt like hours had passed when finally FP4 calmed his breathing and looked up into the eyes of his beautiful savior. The two had collapsed to the ground, and FP4 was laying across his lap. The angel stroked his hair gently.
"It's okay," he whispered, and FP4 shuddered as the voice tickled his ears and left him biting his lower lip in ecstasy. "Everything is going to be alright. ...I love you." Their lips met, then, and FP4 was taken away, floating away from himself, from everything he had ever been, everything he was. He was wrapped tightly in the comfort that was his angel, his savior, and there was no guilt, no shame, no despair--nothing but love.
FP4's eyes fluttered open the next morning, and he fully expected all of it to have been a dream. The last minute contrition, the beautiful angel, and the incredible night they'd spent together after slipping away to a private place. How could he have deserved something like that? But when he turned his head, tears of joy sprung from his eyes. The angelic creature was curled up next to him in bed, purring softly in slumber. The angel must have felt the loving gaze upon him because he suddenly yawned and opened his eyes.
Propping himself up on one elbow, he said "Mornin' sugar. Sleep well?"
"Yes. That... that was amazing. How did you know? I mean... I don't even know your name." FP4 blinked the jubilant tears away, still smiling, and pressed his hand to the angel's cheek.
"It's MattKan," he purred, pressing his paw against the hand as though he feared it would slip away at any moment. "And I've been awaiting this day for a long, long time." The two embraced, and FP4 sighed deeply, knowing that he'd never feel sadness again.
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I'm into the FPxMK pairing atm, anyone else have a favorite forum ship?