You're welcome; I had no idea I was handsome, and I hated myself forever. Recently I've been told that my friends literally just thought I was a model when they met me and didn't understand when I told them that I've always struggled not to think of myself as ugly. Not only was the low self-esteem difficult, but the overwhelming jealousy from others who were constantly cursing me in retrospect—which I couldn't see; also the countless people who have lied to me, used me, only wanted me around to pickup guys & girls, and then of course some much darker sides of life.

Feeling good about yourself must be nurtured inwardly, regardless of your appearance—and suddenly changing in appearance often shows some of the most monstrous sides of people who just go out and use it to sleep with whoever they want, intentionally making other people feel inferior, and using their looks to get ahead without using their soul to create.

I don't know what you look like, but often times people are only a few steps away from looking gorgeous—and I'd encourage you to treasure your inner self experiencing your life more than those carnal lusts. You're worth more, not that you don't deserve to look and feel good about that part of yourself. :-) Best wishes